Workaholic



So, it is me! What then?

These days I'm getting this and that "label" and I'm being accused of being a jerk who pays 99.99% of his attention to the thing called "Job".

But, how could I possibly "not" be so? Sometimes, for example for impressing my boss and to complain about the work pressure I am under, I would say something like "I won't be doing those extra parts of the job because it is out of my realm and I don't have enough time and/or energy to take care of all package all alone and my salary must get in the same frame with my job's outcome and etc etc." But this is simply bullshit! As long as I am working in this current job, I can not help myself being drowned in it and doing some extra-ordinary efforts. I "must" get something done right, and I am really "incapable" of making an excuse to justify why I could not!

From the other hand, my personal life is being negatively affected. I mean there is "no" such thing as "Personal Life" for me, indeed. Thanks to the Goddamn technology, I am always connected to the Internet via Cellphone and/or Laptop. And since we are working with both Asia and Europe and Latin America, the emails keep coming 24 hours a day and around-the-clock! So, once I hear my cell beeps (1 Email) I have to check that! I have to think about the situation. I have to prepare the feedback. And I have to take action for it.

And that is what annoys my wife a lot. However, I really can not see a way out! I am really trying to live a "balanced" work/life thing, but the more I try the less I succeed. The situation is now even worse by my wife's going to work as well. Now she understands how I have been feeling better, but what is the point? She is also tired and we both come back home half-dead in the evening and there is no time left to go out and let some fresh air blow into our hair.

Anyhow, ... I am still trying to provide a balance for this unbalanced one-sided life.